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Monday, June 26th, 2006

Subject:I'm still not too elite for a picture post.
Time:9:18 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
The last week of my life was the best week of my life.
Staying out till 5:30 in the morning to watch a sunrise with my best friend, froliking around in a park with some of the most hillarious people in the world, playing in the water at the legislature, walks, ice cream... skipping work...

These are the best days of our lives.

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Tuesday, May 30th, 2006

Time:10:33 am.
I really don't feel like writing in here anymore.
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Saturday, May 27th, 2006

Time:8:00 pm.
I'm tired of bullshit.
I'm tired of feeling like there is something wrong with me because no one wants to stick around.
I'm tired of the games that make me overanalyze any converstaion, any motion, any tone of voice and any hug.
I'm tired of making myself feel guilty because I'm moving on.

Ugh, time to clean house. My baggage is mounting up again.
But in other news, I hate being single. It's not that I need a relationship to be happy, but it certainly helps. I miss feeling close with someone.
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Thursday, May 25th, 2006

Time:9:40 am.
Mood: pissed off.
I really, really hate when you call to ask a very important question, and after twenty minutes of waiting to hear which number you should press, you end up being more frustrated than you were prior to the whole experience.... and you STILL don't know what the fuck is going on.

So, this toast is for you, University of Alberta.
GRRRR
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Saturday, May 20th, 2006

Time:2:30 pm.
So. Yes, yesterday I did hurt my toe badly. Yes I did get super tanked. Yes I did go home by 12.
It was lame and I was sad that I fucked up my own birthday... but those three hours of unadultered glory were good times.
Now I'm left with a tensor bandage on my foot, a big gross purple bruise on my toe and a hangover the size of missouri.

But, corey looked fantastic
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Tuesday, May 16th, 2006

Time:10:05 am.
Mood: satisfied.
Yesterday was one of the most fun, most hillariously awesome and generally good nights.
To quote a certain Paul "it was a happy monday!"

The strokes concert was a great concert. They sounded awesome live and I had a good time. My shoes actually survived the crowds and the jerks rushing in. That really irritates me... especially when people are coming out of the crowds. There's no reason to be an asshole and shove your way out of there. People will move for you. I couldn't count on both my hands, the amounts of times that some jerkoff violently shoved me into someone so they could get through. In other news, I won myself a drink for petting this 15 year old boy without a shirt on. Corey grabbed him and he thought I did it... then Kerri grabbed his ass and he thought I did it as well. I was like "nono no I only rubbed your shoulders"

If you wear no shirt in a pit... you're gonna get groped (he had INCREDIBLY soft skin btw)

The after party was great. We went to get popsicles however, there was only one so I made out with an oreo ice cream sammich. We got to halo and it was instant good times. I love that place oh so very much. Needless to say, good times were had by all, and Corey danced a lot more this time. Then out of nowhere, the mega old handshake came out. I can't even remember when and where and who that was started by.... but it had to be like, at least a year ago.

But other Mike and I were texting back and forth all night and the one that made me smile will be saved in my folder.
I haven't felt so good in my skin in a while.
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Saturday, May 13th, 2006

Time:7:12 pm.
So yesterday was a blast and a half.
The hockey game was a slamming sucess, and we partied with people on the train because our travels brought us together. It was amazing. Halo was a lot of fun, I got to see a bunch of people I haven't seen in a while, most importantly, Myron. I also got felt up by a drunken Brian Trann, which was slightly awkward. In other news, Corey and Tony made the trek out, which honestly... surprised me greatly that they actually can. Tony turned out to be the hit with my friends. Either way, I had a great time with my favorite people. And they gave me the strokes tickets, so for a bit of connection-luck-fortune, I did end up going to the strokes afterall.

After halo, Mike, Nicole, Amanda, Ryan and I went to Richie's place where I fell asleep and everyone else talked. We left there around 5... and it was funny to come home when the sun was coming up. I slept and was woken up by my cell phone. After that, Amanda and I went to West Ed for birfday shopping. I picked up a sexy/swanky black dress that I need to tape my boobs in for that "just in case" situation. We counted all the tourists, in the end we had a grand total of 46. Such good times. I also got my times for orientation at work. aka tomorrow. So that means no Jasper for me. Which sucks. This is the second trip to jasper I'm missing out on. I just want to see the mountains.

Anyways, I need to make plans to do something. Tis bored.
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Thursday, May 11th, 2006

Time:9:23 pm.
Yesterday: Quite possibly the best night of my life. Hockey... uniting fans since, forever. Dancing in the streets, high fives, random strangers and cheer-songs on the train. So much fun I couldn't even sleep.
Cute boys : "Hey ladies... where are you going?"
Us : "HOME.". That was a "lol" moment for sure.

Tomorrow: Debauchery with best friends in the world. And Blue Jay ♥

P.S. I got a new job. I'm excited as shit on a stick.
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Tuesday, May 9th, 2006

Time:9:09 pm.
Mood: uncomfortable.
ok, i'm really starting to crave it.
which is weird, cause i never really did before.
but seriously.
i need some sex.
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Monday, May 8th, 2006

Time:10:42 pm.
Mood: disgustingly lonely..
have you ever been alone in a crowded room

what is wrong with me already?
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Saturday, May 6th, 2006

Time:1:28 pm.
Mood: hung over.
yesterday was one of the best days ever.
under the weight of alcohol, i spent some quality time and conversations with one of my best friends.
i felt bad when i saw phil though, he completely avoided me even though he knew i was there, even going as far as to walk right in front of the bar where i was, grab a glass and turn completely around without even looking up.

in other news, under the weight of alcohol, mike and i reinforced our theory of double clapping. it works, shut up. AND AND AND, MY ALL TIME CRUSH, aka Blue Jay, the super cute DJ at Halo, danced with us. for a few songs. mike was going to shove me into him, and i was going to ask him to dance, but just as i got the courage to do so, he went back to the booth. :( i ♥ him. seriously. ♥

and also, i had a very disturbing dream in which corey and i went to a party and in the basement there was a screen set up and some movie/music documentary was set up. i was down there by myself, corey was upstairs somewhere and there were nothing but guys there. one tall guy moved right in front of me and was blocking my view of the screen so i yelled (under the weight of a little alcohol) that "some people are assholes and should stick to the back". he turned around and started pushing me and yelling at me, then a few of his friends came over and they were grabbing me in inappropriate places and ripping off some of my clothes. after it was all finished, i was shakey and i texted corey and said "we need to leave, i have to get out of here" and he writes back "well i'll see you later then"
and i started to cry.

but, under the weight of alcohol... I must admist i was charmed by your advances... your advantage left me helplessly into you., this could be a huge problem....
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Thursday, May 4th, 2006

Time:6:44 pm.
as stupid as you may think I am, I gave my two weeks notice.
I don't know what will happen after that, but I'm taking a huge chance with this.
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Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006

Time:10:53 pm.
At times like this, I'm reminded of Jeffrey.

♥ Can I erase myself and start all over again? says:
I want to crawl into bed and cry.

the fence around your garden won't keep the ice from falling says:
can i come?

♥ Can I erase myself and start all over again? says:
yes.

the fence around your garden won't keep the ice from falling says:
i will hold your hand at the hard parts. because sometimes that's nice to have



sigh.
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Sunday, April 30th, 2006

Time:5:31 pm.
there has never been a day more suited than today for teenage suicide.
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Time:1:48 pm.
Mood: depressed.
Here we are again.
A state of introspection so potent that I refuse to elaborate.
In a fit of desperation, I took it upon myself to start a project that will occupy myself until school starts.
I am going to pull out the calm books, blow the dust off and complete a budget that will enable me to move out of the city/province/neighbourhood (at least) in two years. I've already left this place emotionally and mentally. I might as well take my body to a place where I feel I belong.

In other news, I feel despondent and numb today. I'm sure the feeling will pass, as it always seems to do, but the constant flux of moods are wearing away an already frail veneer. I feel a surge of depression at my doorstep and I'm attempting every act of distraction to keep it at bay.

in my head, there's a greyhound station
where i send my thoughts to far off destinations
so they may have a chance of finding a place where their far more suited than here.
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Thursday, April 27th, 2006

Time:8:13 pm.
The worst feeling in the world... deep feelings for someone who won't return them the way you want.

Seriously, it's starting to bum me out. And all my friends say "don't worry, on saturday we'll get drunk and there will be lots of boys for you to have fun with". That sounds like a plan, save one minor detail.... That's not me.
I'm loyal. I like someone... a lot, so that makes harmless flirting/hooking up with strangers just not right. Needless to say I'm not really good at meeting new people and hitting it off anyways.

Even though it's over and I know it's never going to work out... I keep holding on to the thought that maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I am interpreting the signals right. Maybe I should make a move. Maybe I should do something about it. Or maybe it's an imagination lead by a hopeful heart.

In other news, I'm giving up drugs. No more pot for me. I've smoked so much in the past two months that I think it's starting to affect my lungs. After my attack yesterday I'm going to not do it anymore. It's time to cut off the vices.


P.S., This is the first time someone has ever applauded my worst personality disfunctions.

[we were talking about pizza subs from subway and how they are the only ones i get]
Addicted to the Hustle says:
Are you open to TRYING new subs?
this is a mouth that needs religion says:
depends what's on them.
this is a mouth that needs religion says:
most of the time: no
this is a mouth that needs religion says:
i'm a stubborn asshole.
Addicted to the Hustle says:
Haha
Addicted to the Hustle says:
That's adorable
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Time:11:43 am.
OK, so I'm back earlier than expected. We decided to forgo the Canmore experience.

Calgary was a lot of fun. Corey took me to RecordLand and seriously, my only reaction coming in was "holy shit". It's full from the floor to ceiling of records, tapes, cd singles, albums... shit it's amazing. The guy who was working there, and who may have owned it and I had a good conversation about hockey. After we went for supper and learned that turning lanes in calgary kind of suck because they don't really have a system for the lights. But the trains? Awessome.

In other news, I really like Calgary. We got lost a few times but it was ok. I was the worst navigator in the world. Anyways, the show was great. I found musically the bands were way better... but in terms of the crowd, I liked the Edmonton show atmosphere. More intimate.... and I knew a lot of people there. After the show we decided not to go to Canmore and left for home. However we got lost leaving the city and kept getting nowhere we wanted to go and had to get directions. For some reason we were really giddy when we were leaving. It was a lot of fun. We listened to Bruce Campbell's "Making Love the Bruce Campbell Way" audio book on the way there, on the way out we listened to Comedians and random music then I fell asleep. Corey nudged me only once to wake me, and unlike he threatned did not spit on me the second time I fell asleep. The ride was fun, I like being in the passenger seat. Towards the end of the voyage though... I got a really bad allergic reaction to something in the air and totally had a huge reaction. I couldn't breathe and my inhaler wasn't working so I paniced and probablly really freaked Corey out... I had to take another puff and it ended up really making me shakey. So corey sat with me in the driveway before he left so that I could just wait it out.
He's amazing.

Anyways, I went to sleep, woke up and here I am. Back to the same life I am so desperately trying to escape. Full of boredom and predictability. I wish I never had to come home.

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Wednesday, April 26th, 2006

Time:9:55 am.
Mood: content.
OK.

SO yesterday was amazing. I met death cab, and it wasn't even me who freaked out. Corey sort of did. Anyways, this is an abbr. version so here's a point and click version.

The guys were super nice, very rushed but nice. I got stuff signed and got to gush to ben about how much I love his music and I got to tell Chris he is adorable and the best on the recorder. After that I was pumped. I could have started a fight with a 6'5, 245lb man and kicked his ass based on sheer adrenalin alone.

The concert was sort of. Well I didn't really watch all of it. I missed the cribs, absolutely fucking loved death cab, but then again I wasn't expecting any less of them. They tend to put on a good show... and I wasn't too impressed with Franz, so I spent time wandering around outside, watching the traffic pass... then I realized they were playing the hockey game in the foyer so I watched that with some people. The rest of the show, Kerri and I made fun of the stupid idiot boys in front of us.

After the concert, Daniel, Tony, Corey, Alisha and I went to BPs and had some horrible terrible conversations that were nothing short of hillarious. I came home, read some of the book I borrowed from Corey and fell asleep.

On that note, I had some effed up mini dreams. Here they are in short.

Corey and I were walking through my zellers before we left for Calgary and my hand brushed his and he grabbed it, sort of like in shopgirl, we walked through the store hand in hand and I saw Duncan walking past and I made an excited face.

Then I was going to the back to grab some things and Mike was working at my zellers for some reason (since he's on to bigger and better things). I was saying goodbye and I give him a hug in which he awkwardly kisses me on the lips, except it didn't work at all. Then I turn away and he goes "should I just... stick to a hug for good byes?" to which I reply "...... uh.... yea. Was that a eurpoean thing?"

There was one more and it had to do with meeting death cab but I can't exactly remember it.


OH and I had a huge deja vu at the concert with this guy who was beside me for the show. He was in my dream once... and so was his friend and so was him with his phone... His shirt everything. It freaked me out.
We ended up having a talk about booing franz... Cool guy, even though he was probablly like 17.
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Monday, April 24th, 2006

Time:9:27 pm.
Mood: TERRIBLY EXCITED..
the moment i've been waiting my whole life for...
is just hours away.

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Sunday, April 23rd, 2006

Time:5:59 pm.
So last night I was abducted. I didn't really have a choice, so I left semi willingly.
My night of pjs and sims 2 was brutally killed by Amanda, so we went and saw a movie/talked till like 1 in the morning at Tim Hortons.
I slept the best I have slept in weeks last night.

I saw Victoria today. We talked and caught up.
I can sense this is going to work this time.
She made me want to leave so much more than I already do.
Her escape to Toronto has left her with many stories, I found myself jealous of her escapades.

I don't know what to wear on Tuesday, I feel like a hand me down in all of my clothes.
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